I’m gonna kill that Cock!

My landlord happens to also be my neighbor, they are in fact great people.  However, they have a Rooster.  They didn’t mean to get a Rooster, they paid extra to ensure that the chicks they bought were hens……nope.

Rooster has started cocka doodle doing…..crowing…..making a hell of a lot of noise!  The first time is around 5 am, 4:51 am yesterday morning to be exact, then again at 5, why???  Do they have a snooze function I am unaware of.  And yes, at that point I did have murderous thoughts about him, climb over the fence, crawl through the little door……ok, I would technically never hurt the Rooster, I promise.

As I was lying in bed at 5:10 am unable to fall back asleep I started thinking.  Thinking about how this Rooster is an opportunity for me to practice what I have been reading.  Instead of getting caught up in my thoughts, irritations and frustrations at the Rooster, that I don’t want to be up this early, thought they were getting rid of that damn thing etc. I tried to sit back and just watch the thoughts come up and go through.  I went from thinking about the Rooster to my current relationship (we’re broken up) to my day back to my relationship to what am I going to do with my career, it’s a busy brain.

It’s true what I have read about if our thoughts were a person sitting next to us we’d think they were nuts!  My brain goes around and around, I have the same thoughts over and over.  I try not to “grab hold” of any of them but to just let them pass.  When I do, I kindly remind myself to let it go.  I say kindly because beating myself up more isn’t going to help.  This is probably my top growth goal, stop being so dang mean to me!  I am human, I will have human thoughts and human feelings.

I stayed there for a bit and just watched my thoughts, then “5 4 3 2 1” I jumped out of bed.  I have to say I had a great day yesterday.  I accomplished a lot in the morning.  So thank you Rooster!

This morning I didn’t hear him and admittedly a little (very little) part of me was sad.  However, I know that I will have lots of opportunities today to practice sitting in the seat of consciousness and watching my thoughts run through.  I’ve read it is a muscle, a habit and the more we practice when we are not upset the better able we will be at letting go of thoughts that don’t serve us when we are upset.

Most days I end up with Frozen’s Let it Go running through my head!

Be kind to yourselves!

AmyD

 

 

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